Sometimes things just come together and leave you scratching your head and thinking, “Well fuck me naked! That could never happen again in a million years!”
That happened to me this weekend.
As you are well aware, I’m trying to get my shit together this year in some old (nutrition and exercise) and new (therapy) ways. That means there’s a lot of work to do in the inside as well as the outside. In fact, the longer I’m into this navel gazing, the more I realize that if I don’t get the inside right the outside will never be right no matter what it looks like.
I know I know…DUH.
Anyway, I was getting ready to take the dogs on a long walk Sunday so I decided to find a podcast to listen to during our journey. I wanted one by Brene’ Brown but it turns out Brene’ doesn’t do her own podcasts. However, while looking I found this woman Koren Motekaitis who does a regular podcast called “How She Really Does It”. I scrolled down the hundreds of recordings until my eyes landed on one that said “Weight Loss After Menopause”. Well, well, well I thought…this is right up my alley.
I had no idea.
I swear to you this woman being interviewed could have been me. Seems that Koren is a life coach who conducts a “circle” on weight loss from time to time (www.howshereallydoesit.com ) and this woman she was interviewing was part of one of her former circles. Everything that came out of that woman’s mouth felt like my words. From her struggles with typical “diets” (they don’t work) to her conclusion that she had to get in touch with why she ate her emotions (therapy) to her preferred form of movement (walking). It was really kind of spooky.
As I listened to her discuss how she took off 30 pounds I realized that my gut has been right all along (pun intended). If I can learn to listen to what my body wants and needs I can work toward recognizing and then making peace with the emotions and feelings that send me to the pantry in search of salt or sugar, and then maybe I can find my body’s natural weight and perhaps, along the way, make peace with food.
Huge run on sentence and even huge-er goal.
Of course all of the above assumes that I can cut through all the crap I tell myself on a regular basis and create a kinder and more compassionate dialog with myself.
That’s where the second half of my day kicks in…
As I mentioned in a previous post, I’m doing Brene’ Brown’s e-course that accompanies her book, “The Gifts of Imperfection” (www.oprah.com/brenebrowncourse). I’m on week three of six and its been extraordinary thus far. This week did not disappoint. I don’t want to give anything away in case you’re thinking of going through the course but suffice to say my biggest takeaway from week three was this…
“I will talk to myself the same way I talk to the people I love.” ~Brene’ Brown
Just another version of what one of my good friends once said to me when I was using my patented self-deprecating humor.
“Never say anything to yourself that you wouldn’t say to your best friend.” ~Sherry’s Friend Patricia
That’s the sound of the brick God threw landing upside my head.
“There are no coincidences. Only Divine bricks chucked from above.” ~Sherry
Hear that? No?
That’s the sound of quiet determination.