|I know she gained it back but I don’t care…I love Kirstie.|
I am pissed and pouting. In spite of walking 7 days last week for a minimum of 30 minutes at a minimum of 3 mph (not including warm up and cool down) and watching my calories very closely, I only lost 1.2 pounds this week. This is my lowest weight loss yet. It’s lower than the weeks I didn’t exercise (besides yoga). So yes…I…am…pissed.
So I’m pouting. And crying…a little.
It’s just so damn frustrating!!!
And before you say, “But you’re still losing!” or “Just stick with it!” or whatever platitudes people offer when faced with an irrational, bitchy woman who is not making any sense; let me save you the time. I’ve forgotten more of those pep talks than you’ll ever know. I’ve not only said them to other people but I’ve said them to myself so many times just hearing them makes me want to stick a fork in my eye.
I could tell my counselor didn’t believe I had stayed on plan. She kept saying, “You’re almost too easy. Don’t you face any challenges?”
Of course I face challenges you ninny! Like a dumbass I baked brownies for the kids this week. I added chocolate chips…and Heath Bar Toffee Chips. And then I looked at them the rest of the week not taking one bite. Yeah…I faced challenges.
The hubs brought home Chex Mix and left it on the freaking counter instead of storing it in the pantry. So I measured it out and substituted it for my snack. Let me just say that 1/2 cup of Chex Mix ain’t shit.
Like I said…challenges.
And I walked. I walked every freaking day in the 100% humidity (thank God there was no sun) where I couldn’t breathe. I walked with my app that averages 3 mph (told you it was too slow) for 30 minutes and 45 minutes on Friday. Do you know how difficult it’s going to be for me not to kick up my workout and overdo it? To continue with this slow as molasses program that makes me feel like a Benny Hill grandma? Well I’ll tell you! It’s going to be HARD.
So I’ll keep going because I have a strong will and I’m stubborn. I am going to find the key to this and then I’m going to get on with it.
Well…as soon as I’m done pouting that is…
Oh shut up.